Better released in May 2021 to coincide with Mental Health Awareness week. Recorded live during a period of unknown temporary housing with a minimal studio setup it was purposely stark and vulnerable.
Better
She smiles but beneath it lies a hidden truth
She hides from the chance to make a change
The weight hangs around her neck like a tailored noose
Why does it fall in line never rearranged
She steps is it caution or a leap of faith
For you she might just wear some kind of socially acceptable face
But inside the feelings they are beavering away
Knocking the little confidence she has left today
Why am I so unhappy
Oh well what's happiness anyway
Will anything make it better
Oh well what's better anyway
Standing at the kitchen sink talking out loud to you
Tears streaming down her face
The crushing depths of reality of her inadequacies laid down
It was meant to be so different
Why am I so unhappy
Oh well what's happiness anyway
And will anything make it better
Oh well what's better anyway
Her sombre heart is on the floor again
Mind like thick fog resting waiting for the winds of change
Does she want to fight this anymore
What is this status she's living for
She found something that gave her hope to carry on
A love like no other she'd ever known
She didn't have to get it right or wrong
Cos this love made her unconditionally belong
Why am I so unhappy
Oh well what's happiness anyway
And will anything make it better
Oh well what's better anyway
It was today